Mine is, "This is awesome!" Sure, reading a physics textbook may not be as awesome as playing your favorite video game or winning the lottery, but it is awesome if you think it's awesome. You have to destroy your negative thoughts somehow, and fight through stress, depression, and such. Don't be sarcastic about it, even though it may sound sarcastic. If you do it constantly, it will create a nice placebo affect which in turn, will help you plow through any troubles. Stuck in traffic? Well AWESOME! You can now take time to reflect on your day, or think about the day ahead of you and tasks that you must complete. Did you lose your last race in the track meet? AWESOME MAN! Now you know the competition is not as easy as you think, and you will train even harder. Man, did you just fail your first Spanish mid term? (Uh don't look at me!) but AWESOME! You have failed. Now get yourself together and start working hard. Failing is only a failure if you make it a failure. I could have failed that Spanish test and said "Okay I give up, Spanish and me are history", but no, I told myself that I enjoyed Spanish, and that I think it is awesome (it really is though), which in turn helped get me through and pass the rest of my important material.
You can turn doldrums around. Another personal example, I tried out for Baylor club frisbee team sophomore year, but at the time I could not throw a flick to save my life. End result? I didn't make the cut. AWESOME! Now I can spend my 7.5 hours doing other things that will benefit me, and I would not need to worry about the hassle of meeting up every evening/ morning to practice in the dreaded heat. AND, I ended up working on my flick this summer and got magnificently better at it (since I found out my flaw). Now I have a choice to try out again (haha) or to just use my new found abilities in casual games with friends. What will I do? It is personal but I did not feel like I would fit in the team for some reason, that I would kinda have to try to fit in. Some of them seem to serious! All I want is to have fun and have an awesome time. You will find me playing intramurals :)
Some things though, you can not take too far. Morbid happenings and devastating events, as bad as they are, shouldn't be proclaimed as awesome. People will look down upon that, and it's not like you would think such things are awesome anyway so I will leave it at that.
Most of this is based on the self. You probably wont actually admit to someone that failing a test is awesome, or that studying is awesome -- you will probably try to conform and falsely admit that failing a test is depressing and studying is boring. Did you just hear those negative tones resonate in your eardrums? Yeah well its time to shake them out and let them be echoes of the past, starting now! You need a positive outlook on life in order to have a greater chance of that actually happening. A person who looks on life negatively searches for other means (often times very detrimental such as drugs and violence) will probably live a negative life. Don't let that be you (sic'em), because I am not letting that be me.
Next time you think something is stale, encourage yourself to keep it up by gently reminding yourself of your own words of wisdom. Carve your own path and stick to it. Start now, as this is a fresh new school year. Exciting, fun, cool, terrific, and, awesome! :)
-KT
Friday, August 26, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
mm this is good
School as finally started and we are three days in.. how fast is that? I think it is too fast. My guess is, before we know it, we will be studying for our first wave of exams! But I already know it, as I am working on that right NOW! Yeah I learned some valuable lessons over the summer break. One important one is to be on top of your game. You can not let anything slip behind. How did I learn that over summer break? By being academically deprived (for the second half at least) which made me look forward to going back to school (and for other reasons such as independence and engagement in the "real world" of some sorts). Too bad I have two books in transit from UPS... gosh their service is the worst in Waco! I am already behind in those classes, but I wont fret because it is just the beginning basics.
I have come to liken my environment. Nowadays, I am patiently sitting in my room, reading, studying, or just conversing and cooking with my cousin. Cool? You bet. Forget the library, where I never got anything done. Forget the time wasted on the computer doing meaningless things (blogging is not meaningless I hope, it is stress relief and a kind break from life). Forget the naps that I don't really need (umm actually I overslept today, took a two hour nap on accident! Maybe I really did need it..). But it's only the first week and I plan to become more involved with campus life.. that is something I haven't really gotten to do. Perhaps I will actually seek out some eye popping organizations that I can mutually benefit from and meet more people.
There are two new things I have come to enjoy a lot. Cooking is one of them. I am proud to say that I ditched that over priced, fat-filled meal plan and opted to cook most of my meals at home. So far, so good, as I have cooked each of my dinners in Waco, all four of them. It is simple really, but that is only because I am simple to cook for. I eat everything. (That is also why I gained a lot of weight with the meal plan -- I ate everything. I ate about 2-4 plates for dinner each time. Boy was my metabolism hurting. Nowadays, it flies.) My main ingredient is chicken. It is lean, cheap, and filling. What more do you need? Okay fine, it tastes good (well I may be biased but I make it taste good). Pair that with salad and a ton of vegetables of your liking, you got yourself a yummy lunch or dinner or even both! You can change it up too by adding rice or pasta or bread or any carb of your liking.
Exercising is the other. Over the summer, I tried (not my best) to stay fit and trim down and low and behold I saw some results. I plan to hit the gym every single smoking day. Maybe more than once a day. Will I over work my body? I don't think so. So far I feel great with a good, hour long work out each day. Maybe I will leave it at that. I have set up a schedule so I can have certain days to do work out A and work out B with rest day C (cardio). I should do that for studying too while I am at it. Over the course of this semester, I will try my best to keep in top shape, both in the gym and in the classrooms.
Okay I must also admit, I really enjoy rooming with my cousin Guillaume. This guy is awesome. We get along like caterpillars transforming into cocoons which in turn, evolve into butterflies, which flutter beautifully in the mid summer night. Okay maybe not in THAT sense.. but perhaps we get along like peanut butter and jelly in whole wheat bread (because we are not processed). It makes it sound like I haven't met him before, and I have obviously -- I see him every week of the year. But now, I get to see him almost every waking hour. Not really, but enough to make me decide if I he is a great family member or not. Haha I kid, he is awesome and will be a key in my success here this year.
So that's all I needed to take a break from my studies. Time to hit them up once more, then crash in my awesome bed, which is located in my awesome room, that is accompanied by my awesome self. Okay I just laughed at myself just now because I never ever ever ever (Justin Bieber reference) flatter myself. It feels very weird and of course I don't mean it!!
-KT
I have come to liken my environment. Nowadays, I am patiently sitting in my room, reading, studying, or just conversing and cooking with my cousin. Cool? You bet. Forget the library, where I never got anything done. Forget the time wasted on the computer doing meaningless things (blogging is not meaningless I hope, it is stress relief and a kind break from life). Forget the naps that I don't really need (umm actually I overslept today, took a two hour nap on accident! Maybe I really did need it..). But it's only the first week and I plan to become more involved with campus life.. that is something I haven't really gotten to do. Perhaps I will actually seek out some eye popping organizations that I can mutually benefit from and meet more people.
There are two new things I have come to enjoy a lot. Cooking is one of them. I am proud to say that I ditched that over priced, fat-filled meal plan and opted to cook most of my meals at home. So far, so good, as I have cooked each of my dinners in Waco, all four of them. It is simple really, but that is only because I am simple to cook for. I eat everything. (That is also why I gained a lot of weight with the meal plan -- I ate everything. I ate about 2-4 plates for dinner each time. Boy was my metabolism hurting. Nowadays, it flies.) My main ingredient is chicken. It is lean, cheap, and filling. What more do you need? Okay fine, it tastes good (well I may be biased but I make it taste good). Pair that with salad and a ton of vegetables of your liking, you got yourself a yummy lunch or dinner or even both! You can change it up too by adding rice or pasta or bread or any carb of your liking.
Exercising is the other. Over the summer, I tried (not my best) to stay fit and trim down and low and behold I saw some results. I plan to hit the gym every single smoking day. Maybe more than once a day. Will I over work my body? I don't think so. So far I feel great with a good, hour long work out each day. Maybe I will leave it at that. I have set up a schedule so I can have certain days to do work out A and work out B with rest day C (cardio). I should do that for studying too while I am at it. Over the course of this semester, I will try my best to keep in top shape, both in the gym and in the classrooms.
Okay I must also admit, I really enjoy rooming with my cousin Guillaume. This guy is awesome. We get along like caterpillars transforming into cocoons which in turn, evolve into butterflies, which flutter beautifully in the mid summer night. Okay maybe not in THAT sense.. but perhaps we get along like peanut butter and jelly in whole wheat bread (because we are not processed). It makes it sound like I haven't met him before, and I have obviously -- I see him every week of the year. But now, I get to see him almost every waking hour. Not really, but enough to make me decide if I he is a great family member or not. Haha I kid, he is awesome and will be a key in my success here this year.
So that's all I needed to take a break from my studies. Time to hit them up once more, then crash in my awesome bed, which is located in my awesome room, that is accompanied by my awesome self. Okay I just laughed at myself just now because I never ever ever ever (Justin Bieber reference) flatter myself. It feels very weird and of course I don't mean it!!
-KT
Sunday, August 21, 2011
ready for the ride
My extended week was awesome. I just hung out with friends and cleaned up around the house and worked on my book I am reading. It wasn't as productive as I thought it would be but it was a great change from what Waco would have been like.. I think I would have died, for real. There would have been no food or friends to accompany me in my daily activities. Instead, I got to play tons of frisbee, shop till I dropped (my wallet too), and lots of catching up with old friends.
I got a new netbook too! It is 1.5 inches bigger than my old one, clocking in at around 11.6 inches. I got a good deal on it .. saved about $110 (yeah I'm a pro shopper remember?) I tried running newer games on it but to no avail. That's good for me though, no video games to worry about -- saves time, money, and my social life :)
This weekend was tax free, so guess what I did? Well yes I did sleep but I shopped too! I think I saved myself a whopping $8... from taxes. Pretty much the only thing I paid full price for was this white belt because I lost my old one, and I really really liked it. This one doesn't compare at all but it will do for now; it's so hard to find a good white belt! (Well you can search Taekwondo...) and I just scored a steal on some Gap v-necks and Express polo's and on this weird grey sweater (it is a girls XL) that looks good and fits. I wanted shoes but I didn't seek any. Oh well I was lazy for that. I would like to thank Ruyi for her Express coupon code and her fashion suggestions. I got myself into CD's again.. I got John Mayer's Continuum Special 2 set CD at Borders (so sad it's closing), and omg 320 kb/s is pretty much music to my ears. I wish I had a cd player for that reason, but my car stereo reproduces the sound well enough.
I can't wait for school to start at last, it's been too long! And I'm ready to make new classmates and friends. This is the first year I am starting on a clean slate (Girlfriend's really hold you back). And I will have my cousin there with me and hopefully we chill a lot. He seems to want to be more active around campus as well. I think I will be learning a lot of photography from him since that is his passion. Who knows, maybe he will gain a good 2 lbs. of muscle too. Can't wait till Late Night at SLC! That's always fun and crowded. Ya I kinda miss the campus life even if it is Baylor.
Well I am spending a night with my cousin so I can go back up to Waco bright and early tomorrow. I guess I shall find textbooks and settle in and map out my schedule then. I kinda wish we started on Wednesday but it is what it is. Cheers to a new school year!
-KT
I got a new netbook too! It is 1.5 inches bigger than my old one, clocking in at around 11.6 inches. I got a good deal on it .. saved about $110 (yeah I'm a pro shopper remember?) I tried running newer games on it but to no avail. That's good for me though, no video games to worry about -- saves time, money, and my social life :)
This weekend was tax free, so guess what I did? Well yes I did sleep but I shopped too! I think I saved myself a whopping $8... from taxes. Pretty much the only thing I paid full price for was this white belt because I lost my old one, and I really really liked it. This one doesn't compare at all but it will do for now; it's so hard to find a good white belt! (Well you can search Taekwondo...) and I just scored a steal on some Gap v-necks and Express polo's and on this weird grey sweater (it is a girls XL) that looks good and fits. I wanted shoes but I didn't seek any. Oh well I was lazy for that. I would like to thank Ruyi for her Express coupon code and her fashion suggestions. I got myself into CD's again.. I got John Mayer's Continuum Special 2 set CD at Borders (so sad it's closing), and omg 320 kb/s is pretty much music to my ears. I wish I had a cd player for that reason, but my car stereo reproduces the sound well enough.
I can't wait for school to start at last, it's been too long! And I'm ready to make new classmates and friends. This is the first year I am starting on a clean slate (Girlfriend's really hold you back). And I will have my cousin there with me and hopefully we chill a lot. He seems to want to be more active around campus as well. I think I will be learning a lot of photography from him since that is his passion. Who knows, maybe he will gain a good 2 lbs. of muscle too. Can't wait till Late Night at SLC! That's always fun and crowded. Ya I kinda miss the campus life even if it is Baylor.
Well I am spending a night with my cousin so I can go back up to Waco bright and early tomorrow. I guess I shall find textbooks and settle in and map out my schedule then. I kinda wish we started on Wednesday but it is what it is. Cheers to a new school year!
-KT
Thursday, August 11, 2011
beginning of the end
Sigh. Summer flashed by like a blink of an eye. The baking of fresh cookie pie and the rising of bread made of rye, was a dream in the sky. My oh my, I'm not gonna lie, that I did try to comply with my summer moti (using as plural for motives, means fat woman in Hindu apparently). But why, why did that vision go dry? I don't know but I ain't gonna cry. I am a big kid, nothing can fry my alibi that I can't deny. I had ample supply of time that did not justify my eyeing goals.
That was me having a little random fun. I remember I had set some goals at the start of summer, but I did not fulfill them all. Let us see if I can remember them... I maybe had 5 or 6. There was: bike for an absurd amount of miles, read books, write, work on my spanish, clean my house, and I can't remember anything else.. I will look back later I suppose. I didn't bike that much, but I did do an okay amount of running and lifting, thanks to my workout buddies, I could never have done it without yall! I also did not go on any of the Thursday group rides I may have mentioned, so I will make up by doing a hard solo ride tomorrow (I never did a solo ride this summer, so sad). I only read like 3 books.. and I purchased about 20. But, I will spend my week in Waco reading so hopefully I can knock out more books. I have been writing in this blog, but not as much as I wanted, but I will try my best to keep it up during the school year; perhaps an update every so often or when something miraculous or eventful happens. I kinda worked on my Spanish ... at the very beginning of summer, and now at the very end. I can safely say that I got a lot worse, but I still can type it out so that you can understand what I am trying to say. It might just sound so wrong. Like a fob speaking Engrish. I will read that Spanish textbook on my dead week too! And I cleaned my house minute, as always, but it is messy right now because I unpacked some stuff to bring up and I unloaded it in my living room. I also cleaned my car about 6 times, I will clean it again tomorrow. Too bad my parents wont let me bring it.... I will see if I can persuade them to change their minds later.
I had a great summer overall. I got closer with old friends that I was close with before and met some new people. I slept a lot... but I also lost a lot of weight. I think I lost about 17 or so, that was unexpected. That was not one of my goals but I guess it just happened. I might as well keep it off too because I rediscovered my pants in my closet, thanks to Jenny. I found that one garment that I didn't really like in particular, but now, I love it. It fits perfectly. It is funny though, that I was in the range of healthy.. so I hit the highest and lowest limits of the range (I think).
I can't wait for school to start up again, and also can't wait to room with my cousin Guillaume! We will have good bro time, I am sure. I can't wait to see his reaction when he spots me lounging in just boxers, or briefs, or what ever I have on (or off). But then again he is a Frenchie.. I will hopefully not throw any more wild parties since he does not party, so that is good. More study and sober and sleep is good :) I had my fare share of party hardy weekends in Houston anyway, too many to count. Let's just say there were about three or four sober weekends.. but I gotta shout out to Hansen, Steve, Jenny, and Daniel for making it so fun and being excellent company. Hopefully the one tomorrow will be my last until I am 21, since I got it all out of my system now. Plus no one drinks in Waco, we are all Christian. I came back to town thinking I would go to about zero parties but boy I was surprised that there was stuff going on. Guys, studying is fun.
I hope to play more frisbee in Waco. I got back into it... yesterday... and I am craving more! I need to finish finding out the flick.. I am getting there. I wish I had gone to the games earlier this summer.. I had the feeling no one really went (but people did, just later in the summer, like me!) because I went to two of them in the very beginning and only five people would show up. Now about twenty show up! Woot woot. I also felt like I contribute to the team more than usual so that's a plus haha.
I miss my bro Steve as he left almost a week ago, but that's all good cause we will always have each others backs no matter how far apart we are, whether it be 1000 nanometers or 1000 miles. I will also miss Hansen because I might not ever see him again. And I will miss Jenny because she also goes to Cornell with them haha. Just kidding that is not why.
Random: my favorite things this summer were the trip to Austin and cooking with Hansen and Jenny. Best ever things. Both huge successes. Chyeah.
Well that's all for now. It's winding down, and I wish I had the last week here, but I will be glad to head back early to get away from distractions here. Gonna just read and run and ramble. I will make sure it is fun.
-KT
That was me having a little random fun. I remember I had set some goals at the start of summer, but I did not fulfill them all. Let us see if I can remember them... I maybe had 5 or 6. There was: bike for an absurd amount of miles, read books, write, work on my spanish, clean my house, and I can't remember anything else.. I will look back later I suppose. I didn't bike that much, but I did do an okay amount of running and lifting, thanks to my workout buddies, I could never have done it without yall! I also did not go on any of the Thursday group rides I may have mentioned, so I will make up by doing a hard solo ride tomorrow (I never did a solo ride this summer, so sad). I only read like 3 books.. and I purchased about 20. But, I will spend my week in Waco reading so hopefully I can knock out more books. I have been writing in this blog, but not as much as I wanted, but I will try my best to keep it up during the school year; perhaps an update every so often or when something miraculous or eventful happens. I kinda worked on my Spanish ... at the very beginning of summer, and now at the very end. I can safely say that I got a lot worse, but I still can type it out so that you can understand what I am trying to say. It might just sound so wrong. Like a fob speaking Engrish. I will read that Spanish textbook on my dead week too! And I cleaned my house minute, as always, but it is messy right now because I unpacked some stuff to bring up and I unloaded it in my living room. I also cleaned my car about 6 times, I will clean it again tomorrow. Too bad my parents wont let me bring it.... I will see if I can persuade them to change their minds later.
I had a great summer overall. I got closer with old friends that I was close with before and met some new people. I slept a lot... but I also lost a lot of weight. I think I lost about 17 or so, that was unexpected. That was not one of my goals but I guess it just happened. I might as well keep it off too because I rediscovered my pants in my closet, thanks to Jenny. I found that one garment that I didn't really like in particular, but now, I love it. It fits perfectly. It is funny though, that I was in the range of healthy.. so I hit the highest and lowest limits of the range (I think).
I can't wait for school to start up again, and also can't wait to room with my cousin Guillaume! We will have good bro time, I am sure. I can't wait to see his reaction when he spots me lounging in just boxers, or briefs, or what ever I have on (or off). But then again he is a Frenchie.. I will hopefully not throw any more wild parties since he does not party, so that is good. More study and sober and sleep is good :) I had my fare share of party hardy weekends in Houston anyway, too many to count. Let's just say there were about three or four sober weekends.. but I gotta shout out to Hansen, Steve, Jenny, and Daniel for making it so fun and being excellent company. Hopefully the one tomorrow will be my last until I am 21, since I got it all out of my system now. Plus no one drinks in Waco, we are all Christian. I came back to town thinking I would go to about zero parties but boy I was surprised that there was stuff going on. Guys, studying is fun.
I hope to play more frisbee in Waco. I got back into it... yesterday... and I am craving more! I need to finish finding out the flick.. I am getting there. I wish I had gone to the games earlier this summer.. I had the feeling no one really went (but people did, just later in the summer, like me!) because I went to two of them in the very beginning and only five people would show up. Now about twenty show up! Woot woot. I also felt like I contribute to the team more than usual so that's a plus haha.
I miss my bro Steve as he left almost a week ago, but that's all good cause we will always have each others backs no matter how far apart we are, whether it be 1000 nanometers or 1000 miles. I will also miss Hansen because I might not ever see him again. And I will miss Jenny because she also goes to Cornell with them haha. Just kidding that is not why.
Random: my favorite things this summer were the trip to Austin and cooking with Hansen and Jenny. Best ever things. Both huge successes. Chyeah.
Well that's all for now. It's winding down, and I wish I had the last week here, but I will be glad to head back early to get away from distractions here. Gonna just read and run and ramble. I will make sure it is fun.
-KT
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
how to prepare for going back to school, i mean...
1. Sleep all day a week before school starts in order to make up for any sleep you will miss due to partying too much during your first week of classes. There is nothing else to do ..
2. Buy a macbook air to take notes in your classes, an ipad 2 to play with during your break time, an iphone 5 to show that off to your friends, and a windows pc for your room for hacking other people.
3. Gather some textbooks that you might not even crack open. Sell them later for profit.
4. Make last minute changes to your schedule because you thought about a career change during summer.
5. Go shopping for groceries that might end up in your pantry till you move out.
6. Get to know your roommate now before you really get to know him/her.
7. Email each of your professors and ask them for any homework you can get started on. Ask for the syllabus and print it out and give it to your parents. You know they want it.
8. Start eating breakfast, and eat a lot because you will not have time to eat once you start your first class. Your next meal will be at 2am.
9. Buy some additional clothing so you wont have to do laundry as often. Maybe once a month will suffice.
10. Set your alarm clock to ring at 7am, 7:05am, 7:07am, 7:08am, 7:11am, 7:14am, 7:14.30am, 7:15am, 7:30am, 7:44am, 7:46am and 7:57am, because you really need to wake up for that 8am class. If you over sleep, set 2 more clocks with non conflicting times, if you can find any.
So there you have it. Hopefully this will help all of us get started with a BANG!
Now read the following with your own care. As you already know by now, I don't try to offend anyone. I just use my life experiences to give examples of what I talk about. These are my thoughts. You have your own thoughts. It is up to you to share them if you deem necessary. I am not wrong, but you are not wrong either. Remember, this is my diary, my point of view, my world 3.0 (not a bieber reference at all guys). pretty much, you just have guest privileges, you VIP freak :) Carry on.
This past week has been pretty eventful, from car washing to shopping to eating out to biking to working out in the park at night to cleaning the entire house and the garage to "social gatherings"... list can go on for over 5 .... pages! :) All that tossed aside now, what I really came here to talk about tonight is .. being mean, as the title also states, yet abruptly stops at (what literary device is that called? did I just invent one?). Taylor Swift is big enough so no boys can hit her now... as for Rihanna, she's just politely asking for more rude boys to come her way to kick her in the rear; She just doesn't get it does she? Well I am a pretty nice guy, which probably explains why I finish last (see kevjumba or nigahiga's nice guy music video, its neat), and I am pretty tired of it. Well, I am tired of it because of other influences such as my dad. I get bitten in the rear a lot for being too nice.. and lately I think I have been mean. Here is a brief dialogue that has been translated from Chinese (Taochew dialect) to American English:
Dad (2:00am): Kevin, why you home so late?
Kevin (2:00am): I went to karaoke with my friends. Didn't mom tell you? I did not go to the beach.
Dad: It too dangerous, Kevin. Why you come home too late? I can't sleep, boy. Don't do this again or else you go somewhere else to live.
me: I drove my friends and we paid for 2 hours already.
dad: Why you let them use you too much, boy? Stop playing with them. They want to play all the time, they drive. You find girlfriend to play with and spend time with her. That is fine if you do that and come home late.
me: We are just friends, dad... I don't want a girlfriend. They are not using me we all wanted to do it.
dad: Boy, look at your face. It is ugly. It is because you come home late...
I shall stop there. Let's just say it's not the first time I came home late... or that he threatened to kick me out.. or that he calls one of my physical physiques faulty (fat, ugly, whatever I'm used to it all). My dad is a sentinel. He once locked me out because I missed his phone call at 3am. Well I can't help it, most of the times hanging out at night is what fits everybody's schedule. I don't have an ugly face because I lack sleep; I get enough of it. It is probably due to all the peanuts I eat and all of the sweat that I earn when I work out. Let's have another look at a conversation that I don't really remember how it got started:
me: Hey man lets go into the Jacuzzi! Like right now.
boy: It's too hot, we will go when it's cooler.
me: jumps in between boy and the girl that is clinging on to him. Heyy.
girl: she says something along the lines of "GET OFF ME" "If you had your own girl you wouldn't be doing this" << now that is just a paraphrase. It was probably much worse than that and thankfully I can not recall the exact words.
me: pulls boy into room and has a bro talk while girl summons girl's friends and they all sing random songs.
Ok that can end there as well. What happened? I am not sure to what got the girl all giddy, cause that's how I always act around her. But when latched onto the boy like a parasite, I am merely a competitor. Now how is that fair if she was leeching on me at first, to suck up some nutrients from the boy? Well let's just all say that what the girl's last words she had spoken to me are kinda rude, maybe quite mean as well. Who says that? Who knows, because there was not much to say after that incident; not even the next morning, as Girl was trying to leech again but to no avail, I have let go of the bond as it was one sided at last. Now girl must find another mutual companion, and hopefully Girl does not harm him. I make sure that no harm is done.
Some textual dialogue between me and Girl2 about two days later..
me: misses about 3 of girl2 phone calls because I was with a large group of people and at a karaoke bar. could not hear what girl2 was saying after picking up the phone and talking to her the 2nd time.
girl2: from what i heard i think she wanted to do something like club with 2 of her friends, or meet up where i was.
me: i was probably mean, on accident. apparently she had her final call with me. it is sad cause i am pretty much free all week from now. now i will be more bored!
So pretty much all I said on the phone was what I can't hear you and I told her to text me but she would not. So in all honesty, I lost contact with someone because I could not hear them and because they were ticked that I did not pick up my phone b/c I was not aware that it was ringing. I was mean on accident while she was just ... I guess making up her mind? Not really mean on her behalf as I understand what I did was pretty mean too. It's just that I would gladly speak to her when permissible. If girl2 was at a concert and I called her, I would understand if she could not hear anything and I would text her. So I was mean but girl2 was not cooperating so therefore she took it as me being VERY mean and RUDE, which was not my intention.
But guys, guys, am I really that mean? Let's find out with this conversation:
after a long talk with someone...
girl3: who has been staring at us 2 talking hey if you have something to say to me, tell it to me right now in front of my face (yet again another paraphrase, it probably came out sounding like that, demanding.)
me: with a puzzled mindset umm no we have nothing to talk about.
girl3: ok then. leaves the scene without saying goodbye to many people.
But after small talk the next day, we both find out we misinterpreted things, and we pretty much forgave each other, and moved on with a happy happy day. (Until later that night that is, refer to talk with dad).
So girl3 was being mean, but only because of all of the things that were going through her head when she saw me and the guy talking. She created her own anger it seems. Perhaps she heard an echo of her name, which she is correct, but nothing worthy of relaying to her. It is unnecessary and harmless, to speak the truth. It is like me hearing my name when two of my friends speak, only to be dissapointed that the reason they said my name was because they said that I took Spanish class last year... ya know, knowing that would have no impact on my thought of the two friends that said my name. Now if they said that I was a mean, greedy, immature, short little bastard, I think some fireworks would be going down.
What do I learn from all of this? Being mean actually matters. It gets your point across. It shakes people up. It keeps you unpredictable. It makes you grow white hairs and stress out and raises your blood pressure. It causes confusion and breaks bonds (even the quite stable covalent ones). It scares people and dogs away.
The fact is, if you can help it, don't be mean even if you can't help it cause it gives you a bad reputation. Do you know what I think of Osama Bin Laden? Yes well I think he was mean. Even more so, evil. Don't tag such a quality to yourself. Am I mean? In totality, of course not. To some selected few, I may seem like it. Do I try to be? Rarely, most of the times, no. Am I a nice meanie? Yeah I admit I am.. which means even if I wanna be mean, I'm not as mean as someone with a mean nature, ya know what I mean? I just made that term up but that pretty much describes me. There are just some people I can't be mean to, but other people, I can be. If you had a pie chart that numerically displays my meanness, it would have to be like pacman's mouth when it first about to bite the little dot, or 2% of the time. For every 100 things I do, I do 2 things that others might think is mean. Obviously I can have a mean streak, with up to 5 mean things in a row, but this is an average. How do I know for a fact? Well I know who gets along with me.
To throw off any readers who endured my cluttered thoughts, I am happy to say that I tapped into my geek side and hacked my phone. It is now faster, prettier, and smoother than butter than before. What a whacky sentence. Now I can spend some free time playing with it and modifying it even more! It keeps me with something to do (Another whack sentence signifying my sleep depravity).
I'll leave it off with that. Don't try to be mean, but if you mean to be mean, something bad will happen to someone else, and to you too in the road less followed. Or is it traveled? Hmm.. forget it, just pave your own road and be yourself. Other people will deal with who you are, It is called the Golden Rule. It is not one of the 10 commandments, but I suggest you follow it, or at least try to, just like you try to follow those commandments! :)
Edit: Funny how things change so quickly. Refer to my post about what friends are for... I stated that I had no time to test my own personality, the extent of my nice-ness.. time flies.
-KT
2. Buy a macbook air to take notes in your classes, an ipad 2 to play with during your break time, an iphone 5 to show that off to your friends, and a windows pc for your room for hacking other people.
3. Gather some textbooks that you might not even crack open. Sell them later for profit.
4. Make last minute changes to your schedule because you thought about a career change during summer.
5. Go shopping for groceries that might end up in your pantry till you move out.
6. Get to know your roommate now before you really get to know him/her.
7. Email each of your professors and ask them for any homework you can get started on. Ask for the syllabus and print it out and give it to your parents. You know they want it.
8. Start eating breakfast, and eat a lot because you will not have time to eat once you start your first class. Your next meal will be at 2am.
9. Buy some additional clothing so you wont have to do laundry as often. Maybe once a month will suffice.
10. Set your alarm clock to ring at 7am, 7:05am, 7:07am, 7:08am, 7:11am, 7:14am, 7:14.30am, 7:15am, 7:30am, 7:44am, 7:46am and 7:57am, because you really need to wake up for that 8am class. If you over sleep, set 2 more clocks with non conflicting times, if you can find any.
So there you have it. Hopefully this will help all of us get started with a BANG!
Now read the following with your own care. As you already know by now, I don't try to offend anyone. I just use my life experiences to give examples of what I talk about. These are my thoughts. You have your own thoughts. It is up to you to share them if you deem necessary. I am not wrong, but you are not wrong either. Remember, this is my diary, my point of view, my world 3.0 (not a bieber reference at all guys). pretty much, you just have guest privileges, you VIP freak :) Carry on.
This past week has been pretty eventful, from car washing to shopping to eating out to biking to working out in the park at night to cleaning the entire house and the garage to "social gatherings"... list can go on for over 5 .... pages! :) All that tossed aside now, what I really came here to talk about tonight is .. being mean, as the title also states, yet abruptly stops at (what literary device is that called? did I just invent one?). Taylor Swift is big enough so no boys can hit her now... as for Rihanna, she's just politely asking for more rude boys to come her way to kick her in the rear; She just doesn't get it does she? Well I am a pretty nice guy, which probably explains why I finish last (see kevjumba or nigahiga's nice guy music video, its neat), and I am pretty tired of it. Well, I am tired of it because of other influences such as my dad. I get bitten in the rear a lot for being too nice.. and lately I think I have been mean. Here is a brief dialogue that has been translated from Chinese (Taochew dialect) to American English:
Dad (2:00am): Kevin, why you home so late?
Kevin (2:00am): I went to karaoke with my friends. Didn't mom tell you? I did not go to the beach.
Dad: It too dangerous, Kevin. Why you come home too late? I can't sleep, boy. Don't do this again or else you go somewhere else to live.
me: I drove my friends and we paid for 2 hours already.
dad: Why you let them use you too much, boy? Stop playing with them. They want to play all the time, they drive. You find girlfriend to play with and spend time with her. That is fine if you do that and come home late.
me: We are just friends, dad... I don't want a girlfriend. They are not using me we all wanted to do it.
dad: Boy, look at your face. It is ugly. It is because you come home late...
I shall stop there. Let's just say it's not the first time I came home late... or that he threatened to kick me out.. or that he calls one of my physical physiques faulty (fat, ugly, whatever I'm used to it all). My dad is a sentinel. He once locked me out because I missed his phone call at 3am. Well I can't help it, most of the times hanging out at night is what fits everybody's schedule. I don't have an ugly face because I lack sleep; I get enough of it. It is probably due to all the peanuts I eat and all of the sweat that I earn when I work out. Let's have another look at a conversation that I don't really remember how it got started:
me: Hey man lets go into the Jacuzzi! Like right now.
boy: It's too hot, we will go when it's cooler.
me: jumps in between boy and the girl that is clinging on to him. Heyy.
girl: she says something along the lines of "GET OFF ME" "If you had your own girl you wouldn't be doing this" << now that is just a paraphrase. It was probably much worse than that and thankfully I can not recall the exact words.
me: pulls boy into room and has a bro talk while girl summons girl's friends and they all sing random songs.
Ok that can end there as well. What happened? I am not sure to what got the girl all giddy, cause that's how I always act around her. But when latched onto the boy like a parasite, I am merely a competitor. Now how is that fair if she was leeching on me at first, to suck up some nutrients from the boy? Well let's just all say that what the girl's last words she had spoken to me are kinda rude, maybe quite mean as well. Who says that? Who knows, because there was not much to say after that incident; not even the next morning, as Girl was trying to leech again but to no avail, I have let go of the bond as it was one sided at last. Now girl must find another mutual companion, and hopefully Girl does not harm him. I make sure that no harm is done.
Some textual dialogue between me and Girl2 about two days later..
me: misses about 3 of girl2 phone calls because I was with a large group of people and at a karaoke bar. could not hear what girl2 was saying after picking up the phone and talking to her the 2nd time.
girl2: from what i heard i think she wanted to do something like club with 2 of her friends, or meet up where i was.
me: i was probably mean, on accident. apparently she had her final call with me. it is sad cause i am pretty much free all week from now. now i will be more bored!
So pretty much all I said on the phone was what I can't hear you and I told her to text me but she would not. So in all honesty, I lost contact with someone because I could not hear them and because they were ticked that I did not pick up my phone b/c I was not aware that it was ringing. I was mean on accident while she was just ... I guess making up her mind? Not really mean on her behalf as I understand what I did was pretty mean too. It's just that I would gladly speak to her when permissible. If girl2 was at a concert and I called her, I would understand if she could not hear anything and I would text her. So I was mean but girl2 was not cooperating so therefore she took it as me being VERY mean and RUDE, which was not my intention.
But guys, guys, am I really that mean? Let's find out with this conversation:
after a long talk with someone...
girl3: who has been staring at us 2 talking hey if you have something to say to me, tell it to me right now in front of my face (yet again another paraphrase, it probably came out sounding like that, demanding.)
me: with a puzzled mindset umm no we have nothing to talk about.
girl3: ok then. leaves the scene without saying goodbye to many people.
But after small talk the next day, we both find out we misinterpreted things, and we pretty much forgave each other, and moved on with a happy happy day. (Until later that night that is, refer to talk with dad).
So girl3 was being mean, but only because of all of the things that were going through her head when she saw me and the guy talking. She created her own anger it seems. Perhaps she heard an echo of her name, which she is correct, but nothing worthy of relaying to her. It is unnecessary and harmless, to speak the truth. It is like me hearing my name when two of my friends speak, only to be dissapointed that the reason they said my name was because they said that I took Spanish class last year... ya know, knowing that would have no impact on my thought of the two friends that said my name. Now if they said that I was a mean, greedy, immature, short little bastard, I think some fireworks would be going down.
So my dad was being mean to me for being to nice to my friends and for coming home too late all the time. He is trying to protect me. Looks like I was just breaking his sleep cycle too.
I was mean to girl1 because I could not stand how mean she was, and she tasted her own medicine which perhaps she is still recovering from.
Girl3 was being mean to me because she thought we were saying mean things about her, but that was later resolved.
Girl2 thought I was being mean, so she is mean back to me. That is okay though as you can see from these summaries, karma has bitten me back and I understand.
What do I learn from all of this? Being mean actually matters. It gets your point across. It shakes people up. It keeps you unpredictable. It makes you grow white hairs and stress out and raises your blood pressure. It causes confusion and breaks bonds (even the quite stable covalent ones). It scares people and dogs away.
The fact is, if you can help it, don't be mean even if you can't help it cause it gives you a bad reputation. Do you know what I think of Osama Bin Laden? Yes well I think he was mean. Even more so, evil. Don't tag such a quality to yourself. Am I mean? In totality, of course not. To some selected few, I may seem like it. Do I try to be? Rarely, most of the times, no. Am I a nice meanie? Yeah I admit I am.. which means even if I wanna be mean, I'm not as mean as someone with a mean nature, ya know what I mean? I just made that term up but that pretty much describes me. There are just some people I can't be mean to, but other people, I can be. If you had a pie chart that numerically displays my meanness, it would have to be like pacman's mouth when it first about to bite the little dot, or 2% of the time. For every 100 things I do, I do 2 things that others might think is mean. Obviously I can have a mean streak, with up to 5 mean things in a row, but this is an average. How do I know for a fact? Well I know who gets along with me.
To throw off any readers who endured my cluttered thoughts, I am happy to say that I tapped into my geek side and hacked my phone. It is now faster, prettier, and smoother than butter than before. What a whacky sentence. Now I can spend some free time playing with it and modifying it even more! It keeps me with something to do (Another whack sentence signifying my sleep depravity).
I'll leave it off with that. Don't try to be mean, but if you mean to be mean, something bad will happen to someone else, and to you too in the road less followed. Or is it traveled? Hmm.. forget it, just pave your own road and be yourself. Other people will deal with who you are, It is called the Golden Rule. It is not one of the 10 commandments, but I suggest you follow it, or at least try to, just like you try to follow those commandments! :)
Edit: Funny how things change so quickly. Refer to my post about what friends are for... I stated that I had no time to test my own personality, the extent of my nice-ness.. time flies.
-KT
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